Regret...

I'm stuck. I'm lost with no way out. I have made the biggest mistake of my life and can't undo it. Oh, how I wish I could go back in time. Yell, "Annnnd CUT!" Call for a do over. Something. ANYTHING! IF I could I know what I would change. I would walk, not RUN when I saw you coming my way. I would never have spent time trying to get to know you or letting you into my life. I would not have cared if you lived or died. I would not have let you bring me down to your level. I would not have "fallen" for you. I wouldn't have given you my vow.
You are a plague that ascended from the pit of hell to reign down fury on my life.
You are a worthless, vile, pathetic excuse of a man.
You are a liar.
You are hateful.
You are spiteful.
You are unstable.
You are unloving.
You are disrespectful.
You are ungrateful.
You are two faced.
You distort reality.
You are everything that I hate.
You are the epitome of the guy I did NOT want to end up with.
This cannot be my life. Oh, how you have changed. Oh, how much you have stolen from my life. I wish that I could change the past because I don't want you to be a part of my future. You disgust me. I loath being in your presence. I did not deserve the misery you have brought into my life. You fill me with rage. My blood pressure skyrockets with every ignorant, hateful thing you utter. I wish I were someone else. Someone who's happy. Someone with a future. But I'm not; I'm stuck here....with you....and I feel like you're draining the very marrow from my bones. It's dark here....there is no light. When will this end?